Saturday, January 6, 2007
its a bad day today.got scolding from ___ until like shit.i think i really pissed him off until he took me out.but heck.he doesn't even tell me where i've gone wrong and continues to scold me.as if i can read his mind la!what the heck.come on man! can you just give a better instruction?so that i can understand? and most prefably in english pls.and what you said about being tired and stuff are all chosen by you, yourself.so just stop complaining and putting the blame on us.we nv forced you.i dun think you will gain the respect of your players this way.not through treating us like a pain in your neck. and why must we conform to your schedule. why can't you conform to us instead, for the first time?isn't it high time, your turn to accommodate us?if you can't cope, you shouldn't even take up this responsibility in the first place.now you are making everyone unhappy and tired too. what's the point. when will you see the point, i wonder?will you ever? yes okae. enough. yes..and so i was having my dinner at 9.30pm(yes), i was telling my parents about what happened and i was so fuming mad that i felt i got indigestion and was feeling so hot.im so mad.if it wasn't for my previous coach, i would have just said bye bye. i dun wanna let her down. and all i have for you is that shouting doesn't work on me.you will just make me go against you more. so just stop the shoutings from one end to another.it really irks me. there should be some respect for the player as well.but through and through, it can't be changed.so whatever.someone help..i still can't seem to let go.. ='( i really really want to move on, but it seems that the harder i try to let go, the deeper i fall.the harder i try to forget, the more i can't.when it seems that i have left you in the past, i find myself starting from the beginning all over again. when i lie on my bed at night, thoughts of you just flashes through my mind.i can't seem to control my thoughts. they just run through the past.and soon i will find my heart feeling the pain all over again.i will miss you all over again. how much more time do i need? i really don't want to go on like this anymore.someone tell me.pls.tmr will be a great day. hmm.. i mean today.=)will you remember 616?
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