Thursday, January 11, 2007
cca sign-up tmr.yup tanhuiling, jkok,kiki going to run tmr.but i can't!!roar!!my knee is giving me problems. im really scared about what's going on inside my knee. its like only the inner side is pain, there's a blueblack that appeared on its own after i iced it and it totally has no strength to go up stairs.and it will hurt like mad.even when im going to stand up, it hurts.basically it hurts whenever use strength on it. =( i dun want any injuries now okae. its really not the time.the new j1s are damn good. im stressed. ___'s impression on me is that im always dreaming during trng. i doubt it will change.___said this during the debrief of daisy tan last sun,"sandy, i realise you can perform during competitive games but during trngs you are always sleeping." yea right..i dun dream or sleep during trngs okae. i know my eyes are small and that i have a tendency to smile when i play(as what all the others and the teachers said..somehow they find it quite amusing) but im totally serious and im NOT sleeping. and im NOT smiling!! it's just that the sun is too hot, and i have to squint and when i squint, i have to show my teeth! ROAR.. BUT if somehow the sun is not blinding and if i happen to be smiling or wadever, i MAY be excited.so dun laugh alright.yes. okae. don't laugh if not i will box and ignore you for the rest of your life.humph.okae.. yest ___cut the team. infront of the new j1s.he's totally tactless (la!) its like he's cutting the j2's.5 of them in total. right infront of the new j1's.and he did this without even telling us beforehand that he's cutting the team yest. he just did it. he thinks that the new j1's are confirmed and he has "better puzzles now for his jigsaw." and some of them broke down.its really very demoralising and saddening to see them get cut like this. i can see that they are really putting in the effort to perfect their basics.and they are even asking us for extra tips on how to play a certain position properly just before they are cut yest. i really don't know what's going on inside ___'s head but i really wish to box him. the teachers asked us to write a letter to them about how we feel and i totally wrote eveything down.all my complains.no hiding.and at first i was afraid the teachers would come find me for counselling(la)but thl said they wun do it. yup. so im relieved.=) at least i said my peace.now im just playing for the sake of my passion and for my previous coaches.i can't let them down.and i hate to disappoint people. yes. okae that's enough for the day. shall continue tmr if there's time.sleep is the most important now. bye!
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